Monday, December 29, 2008

I'm healing!

I went to the surgeon today and he said things are looking great so that is fabulous! I have increased the ability to open my mouth by 6 milimeters so I'm up to 24, however, by next time (15 days) I'm supposed to have it up to 31!! Yipes. On the plus side the next time I see Dr. Buttram he is going to give me the OK to start chewing really soft foods like pasta! Then two weeks after that I should be able to chew anything! What's my first meal going to be you ask?? Papa John's pizza and breadsticks!! Ridiculous, I know, but hey it's good stuff! OH he also cut the amount of time I have to wear the bands WAAY back - so instead of only taking them off for a total of 6 hours a day (three - two hour increments) I will only wear them for 5 hours each day!! Sweet!! I also got to see my x-ray that they took when I was there on the 9th (6 days after surgery). I have 4 screws instead of the 2 I thought I had, and I definitely have a broken jaw! It's broke in 3 places, major breaks! I've never had a broken bone so it was kinda crazy to see the x-ray of it. I had Dr. B explain what all they did and how they did it since I never really asked. He even explained the tool that they use to CUT through the bone. Yuck. I've been doing really good for the most part. Last weekend my brother's puppy bit me pretty hard on my thumb nail which was warrant for a good OWWWWW - which helped me open my mouth wider than I was really ready for. Had a good cry about that and used the rest of my Lortab trying to get over it... Took about a week before I felt better -- it more or less just strained the muscles around my joint more than they were ready for. But all is good now and I still love Maddie!!
I had an excellent Christmas this year! Seemed to be the year of the electronics since we got a new tv, blu-ray dvd player/ps3, camera, gps, tivo subscription...etc. Craziness I tell you. Kyle got me tickets to see our favorite comediain in February here in Indy -- Jeff Dunham. If you've never heard of him go straight to youtube and watch some of his stuff. He's a ventriloquist, which you might think is kinda silly, but it's hilarious!! Anyway, I'm getting tired so I'll leave you with a few pics of the holiday season and you can tell me if you see a difference in my face!



































Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Getting better everyday!

Here is a before picture. I know it's blurry, I took a picture intot he mirror and of course the flash made a nice reflection. But the reason I show it is becaus it is the best picture I have ever seen of myself that shows how off center my jaw is. Keep this one in mind when you look at the after ones!
That being said, I had my jaw surgery on December 3rd - I meant to update this more over the last two weeks but everytime I sat down to do it I'd get sleepy or it wouldn't make sense so I'd delete it. I think that's what pain meds do to you -- always felt pretty damn good though... :) Anyway. I go back to work tomorrow... Boo! But I am actually a little bit excited to be able to put on real clothes and makeup and of course to see my wonderful coworkers! Things have been rough the last two weeks - most especially the first week, but it's getting better!! Here is a picture of the first night..

It was definitely hard - I woke up feeling like it would be ok with me to just die or at least be in a coma for awhile! Mostly because my throat hurt so bad from being intubated. I was absolutely refusing to swallow which worked out for awhile since I had a tube to suck everything out. I tried to talk but that hurt quite a bit at first too so I gave up and just started writing out everything. I remember writing to my mom to get the surgeon and tell him that I take it back and changed my mind. It took them awhile to get the right pain meds for me since the morphine didn't really seem to do much. Regardless, I survived and learned to eat/talk with my mouth rubberbanded shut. I spent the first 5 days at home with mom and then have spent the last week here in Indy with Kyle. When I left the hospital the surgeon kept telling me he couldn't believe how very little swelling and bruising I had. That changed pretty quickly once I got home and wasn't getting the steroids to keep the swelling down. It put a lot of pressure on my face to have it so swollen and I felt like a freak so I tried to stay away from civilization as much as possible! My mom and her boyfriend, Greg, and I watched several movies and just spent a lot of time chillin. It was hard for me to see a difference with all of the swelling even with everyone saying they could already tell. Kyle told me the night of the surgery that he could already see a difference since my chin didn't stick out as far as my nose anymore... God love him (insert angry face). When I came home from being with my mom he asked me if they did anything to my nose during the surgery because it looked different too. I wasn't sure whether I should tell him that it was probably freakin swollen or just punch his lights out. But he said it looked smaller not bigger. haha. So I spared his life. It was definitely a lot harder being at home with Kyle being back at work and having to deal with the dogs. But we managed. I've gotten most of my Christmas shopping done and have even had some time to do a little bit of scrapbooking! I, however, have not managed to find time to clean... Bummer. I got a good report from the surgeon last week when I went in for a follow-up, which was good to know. They took the bands off that kept me shut and now I only have a few that are just restrictive, but I get to take them off 3 times a day for an hour each time so that's nice. It really helps with being able to eat, still can't eat much and still no chewing for another 6 weeks. I've lost about 8 lbs in the last two weeks so I can't really complain about that. Got to get a new pair of jeans this weekend when I was shopping with my mom, I've never been able to wear jeans from this store because they didn't carry them in my size. Now I can, and it was absolutely exhilerating! The only thing that is bothersome anymore is not being able to feel my bottom lip or my chin. I am starting to get some sensation back in both, but very very gradual. It's frustrating and I know it will take months before I get all the feeling back, just weird. Enough talking though, I need to get some sleep so I will just leave you with a few more pictures of my progress over the last 2 weeks!

This is my first day home from the hospital at my mom's house. The ice bags on my shoulders and I were BFF. For some reason after I got up from a nap that evening I was all red and flushed but thankfully didn't have a fever!











The swelling had really started to take over the next day. The round band-aid on my lower cheek is where the stitches are. They had to put the screws in through the outside of my face...














This is about day 4 I think. Still at home in Rochester. And if you can see on my grey shirt I had just spilled water all over myself trying to take a sip. The whole not being able to feel your lips and chin is a bit bothersome at times.











This is the day I got my stitches out and they took the rubberbands off! This is a good shot of the bruising that had started to appear around day 6 and got worse over the next few days. It was on both sides (the yellow part toward the bottom of my face - not around the steristrip).















Also from day 6 when they removed the bands and stitches! FREEDOM!!












In the morning on day 8. My first time wearing makeup in a week! I went to the funeral for a coworker who had died over the weekend... :(











Still day 8 I think, but in the evening. I just liked pictures from this day since I had makeup on, I guess :)












Side shot from the same day. The bruising has gone down tremendously on both sides. The side you're seeing is still pretty swollen but a LOT better than it was before.
















This is from day 10 at Kyle's grandparents for Christmas. I wanted to include at least one of me smiling since I haven't taken many of them since it looks so funny right now. But I figured I would humor you with just one.







Wednesday, December 3, 2008

It's time to go!

Getting ready to head off to the hospital for my surgery this morning! My dad thought it would be nice if I kept this updated with what I'm going through and how things are going so this is my attempt at starting to do that! :) I'll try to take pictures to post so you can watch my facial progress as the swelling goes down. You're just dying to see the swollen face, I know. Anyway, I'm feeling pretty anxious - my stomach says I'm nervous but I keep reminding my stomach that it had 3 pieces of pizza last night and that's why it feels funny. The hubby is pretty sick so he is in bed sleeping right now and my mom and her boyfriend are coming over shortly to take me to the hospital. Hopefully he feels better later and can come visit after the surgery. It still feels pretty weird to be leaving Kyle and the dogs for the next 5 days but I'm sure we'll all manage. Ok I need to finish some last minute package and make sure I have everything I need. Oh on a side note when I went to get my 5 prescriptions last night they asked me if I wanted the keflex flavored (everything has to be liquid) and I was like uhh I don't know. The pharmacist was quick to let me know that this med in liquid form is one of the worst tasting meds they made... AWESOME! Guess what my 3 flavor choices were... orange banana, citrus punch or sour apple. I definitely did not go with the sour apple and opted for the citrus punch. Gag to all of them, what can ya do? haha. Ok back to the task at hand! Check back for updates!
Love to all!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Take a Good Look...

EIGHT DAYS...
Next Wednesday I am going in for my jaw surgery! I met with the surgeon this morning for my pre-op appointment and spent a good deal of time chatting with Dr. Buttrum and the staff. He explained that it was going to be about 3-3 1/2 hours for the procedure which is a little bit longer than typical. He let me know that my case is a little bit more complex because of my joints or something like that. Because of the complexity of it I will also have two board certified surgeons doing the procedure instead of my surgeon and a resident. That's not saying there won't be any residents or interns there because I had to sign a consent form for the possibility that everybody and their brother might be there watch/participating/videotaping... So in one aspect I feel really confident in that knowledge and yet in the other it makes me wonder what the hell is so complex that there will be 2 surgeons instead of one... Why I did not ask them that question is beyond me since I asked everything else I could think of.
Regardless, I'm not really worried about the surgery or the after effects I'm just anxious. I just want it to get here and get it over with so I can stop thinking and dreaming about it 24-7. I have dreams almost every night about it -- some good and some scary. Sometimes in my dreams I get to see what my face might look like when it's all done and some of the dreams my face is horribly deformed. haha. I know it won't be bad but I can't help all the questions that race through my mind. I also feel like I'm super critical to what I see in the mirror right now - but I guess that can't really be helped since the last several moths have been nothing but surgeon and orthodontist appointments who are trained to see all of the flaws and don't mind telling you. For example last month when I had my appt with the surgeon he told me that they could do the surgery on both my upper and lower jaw instead of just the bottom. But he followed that up by reminding me that my ears and eyes aren't exactly symmetrical either so my head would never be perfect. Nice of him eh? He really is a super nice guy, just being honest plus I would not voluntarily elect to do the upper jaw if at all avoidable so I will just live on with my uneven eyes and ears. There go my dreams of being a supermodel... Reminds me of Gessica's wedding when the hairdoer whispered to me when he was done with everyone "don't worry I was able to hide your ears for the most part". This is the man that also told me when he first started doing my hair that he didn't want to put it up because it would make my face look too harsh. Thankfully I can handle the criticism now that I'm older. Geez. Also why I only go to my cousin and mom for my hair, at least I know they're not going to tell me that my face is a disaster and my ears are crooked. haha.
Anyway. Surgery next Wednesday morning at St. Vincent hospital at 11:00am. I will be spending the night and they hope to have me on my way home Thursday afternoon. I will be going home to Rochester with my mom where I will stay until she brings me back to Indy on Monday so I can have the bands taken off on Tuesday! It was really tough to decide where to go after the surgery but I know that I will be able to rest better at home with her. She has been pushing for that all along because of the dogs and I know she's right but it's still hard to be away from Kyle and the dogs for that long. But then when I get back I'll have the next week and half here with them before going back to work. So it all works out in the end. They gave me all of my prescriptions today for after the surgery and some syringes so I could start getting used to "eating" that way. By "eating" I mean for the first week while my mouth is completely rubberbanded shut I will only be able to get nourishment from what I can put through that syringe! :) You're totally jealous, right?? I have been instructed to drink eight - eight ounce glasses of liquid everyday -- more if I can handle it. Three of those drinks have to be high protein and I'm supposed to get as many calories as possible. I told my mom to just stock up on ice cream and milk so I can have shakes all day long! So then after they take the bands off on the 9th I can start a few more solid foods - but still no chewing. Absolutely no chewing for two months they say. I will be living on applesauce, mashed potatoes, cottage cheese and of course, ice cream! :) Ok and maybe some soup. Well technically I can really have anything that I want as long as it can be blended up and made into a shake! Meatloaf shake anyone? MMmmm! A lady at work today tried to pawn off some frozen baby food - peas. Seriously, if I'm going to eat baby food it will sure as heck not be peas. Thank you very much for the thought though.

I should really shut up and get to bed so I can get up and go to work in the morning. Have I ever mentioned that I don't like the cold? In case I have not, I do not. Now I have to take the dogs out for their last potty and freeze my tail off some more.

Anyone want to get paid to take them out everyday thru the winter?

Just so you will always remember - here is a picture of my face - the last time you will ever see it this way!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Waiting for the call...

Moving to a new place this weekend!!!! Hallelujah!
Jaw surgery in exactly 3 weeks. More on that soon.

Thought for the day:
"Those we have truly loved never leave us, they live on forever somewhere deep within the heart."
Missing you tonight, Greg. Thinking of you this Veterans Day and wishing I knew more about that time of your life. Found a picture of you from my high school days. You were sitting on the bar stool with a goofy grin on your face and your arms raised up either in victory or more likely you were stretching before a yawn. Or getting ready to attack someone. Who knows. What I do know is that I miss that mischevious grin of yours and the way you could make us laugh either at you or ourselves... Tonight what I miss most is your knowledge, wish you could help answer this one... You know my prayer tonight...

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Henry and company!


Just had to post this picture of little prince Henry with his aunt Mel at the baptism last weekend. Poor little guy didn't much care for the whole ordeal but as Mel said while he was screaming his little head off... it only confirms that he belongs in our group! :)


And of course had to show you one of Henry with his uncle Brent. I really like the either yuck spot on my camera or ghost (orb) that is covering Brent's head... haha. I think Henry really liked being up so much higher than usual, considering Brent is what? 6'7"??



I made Betsy's family take a picture of the Hanover crew that was there for old times sake. Although I hate myself in it and should have taken the glasses off it is still a cute picture of some of my closest friends!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

Thursday Thirteen (on Saturday)

I think Thursdays are just a bad day but I still like doing my lists! :)

Thirteen favorite TV shows

1 House
2 Biggest Loser
3 Chuck
4 Colts football
5 What NOT to Wear
6 Kitchen Nightmares
7 American Idol
8 Dirty Jobs
9 Extreme Makeover Home Edition
10 Say Yes to the Dress
11 Mythbusters
12 Army Wives
13 Nanny 911